On that cold Friday afternoon in January 1995, my life changed forever. The experience was as though God came and
pulled the veil from my eyes and said, "Wake up my child; it's time to know the truth and be set free."
As far back as I can remember as a young child I felt confused and alienated from life. Thus, I developed a curious
nature about every thing -- walking around trying to understand things like: why sunflowers grew in our yard -- raised
their big heads in the morning and followed the sun throughout the day and drop their heads as the sun set in the
evening. I was curious as to how green trees grew out of the ground I saw no one plant. I was curious as to how I
automatically awakened every morning without anyone waking me up. I was curious about the racism in the world
where one race was treated so unjustly.
I remember panicking when my mother's scream came from my father's abused; yet my grandmother's smile made me
feel so loved. Still life seemed without real meaning throughout much of my life. I yearned to know something that
would make sense to my mind. My thoughts were -- is this all there is? We are born, we live and then we just die? I
longed for purpose, meaning and understanding.
I had a background in church formality and even taught Sunday school; but still I wondered if God and Satan were real.
I wondered what the real meaning of our existence was in the first place.
My teen and young adult years came and went. I married my first husband at age 17 in 1965. We had brought a home
and had five children by the time I was 26. Life brought good days as well as bad days as I tried to be a good wife and
mother. My husband served in the Viet Num War. Later, he started drinking and staying out late night before he was
shot and killed in 1980. I married my second husband months later. I was kind of a perfectionist and tried to control
every situation, otherwise, I felt things would fall apart. Later I began to feel empty on the inside and dissatisfied with
life; after I got off work at night I would stop by the nightclub seeking relief and satisfaction, but there was none. I felt
even more empty and dissatisfied inside.
In the following years, I begin experiencing some very painful, dark and disillusioned times one after the other. Already
in debt, my husband and I both lost our jobs; my car-repossessed and foreclosure threatened us. My oldest
granddaughter ran away from home. We feared for her safety. My middle daughter blatantly accused my husband and
me of something unthinkable we did not do. She treated me as if I were her worst enemy. Months of reoccurring
conflict made matter worse. During that time my oldest son was struggling, battling with drug and alcohol addiction. It
almost destroyed his life -- he looked like a skeleton, as he turned his possessions over to the drug dealers. My
youngest son pronounced he hated me and denounced me as his mother. He threatened to call the police on me during
one of his angry disrespectful outbursts, and slammed the door on his way out. My marriage was also very troubled
during that time; I could not believe it when I found out my husband had committed adultery. My heart was broken. I
was devastated, hurt and angry. The hole in my heart I thought would never heal. It seemed my whole world fell from
underneath me. I was so broken I couldn't see a tomorrow!
On top of all the existing pain and confusion, tragedy struck -- the unexpected death of my 9-month-old grandson. This
was an extremely difficult time for the whole family, especially my daughter. Grief, sadness and darkness were all
around me. I longed for peace and understanding; nevertheless, all the hurt, pain, disappointments and confusion at last
overwhelmed me. I had suddenly come to the end of myself.
In any event, making a long story short, I had gone to visit my sick mother in Emerson Arkansas. I had brought her
something to eat from the kitchen up to the living room where she sat in her recliner. Immediately, I felt compel to go
back down into the kitchen a second time. As soon as I entered the kitchen, standing next to the kitchen sink and the
washing machine, suddenly, this misty, white, cloudy substance swiftly swirled around me at a rapid speed, like a
whirlwind. It lifted and drew me upward; as I went up with my face toward the sky I saw this humongous, clear whitish
male figure high in the sky; He looked as an enormous stature, but He was just so real and alive; more real than
anything I have ever known. I knew right away that He was God. The next thing I knew I was engulfed inside of Him.
We were one and the same being -- merged together. I wept profusely, for His soul was my soul and I was a part of Him.
It felt as His entire body filled the entire world. I could feel His body image being bigger than the oceans and older than
the earth itself; He was truly “The Ancient of Days.” Words cannot adequately express that awesome experience! It was
raw power! Unquestionably, we live inside of Him, as the scripture say in Acts 17: 28 "...For IN Him we live and move,
and have our being...." For I was definitely in Him and He in me!
The weeping intensified. My heart was vigorously but harmlessly penetrated with three powerful thrusts. With each
sensation, knowledge was revealed to my mind. I knew and understood God was in full control of everything, for my
mind was totally at peace in the Mind of God. I could feel His deep overflowing unconditional love flow through me in
spite of all I had done. I knew God loved me, I knew He loved my lying adulterous husband and every soul because I
could feel it in my soul and I knew it in my heart. I knew God loved my sons with their wayward and destructive
behaviors. I knew He loved the liars, prostitutes, drug addicts, adulterous, murders, homosexuals, gamblers and
thieves—it did not matter who people were or what they had done; I knew God loved and cared about every soul
unconditionally. I was in His heart; I felt it. I felt His perfect peace and His unlimited forgiveness, His deep compassion,
His great and tender mercy, His amazing kindness and His immense grace; I felt it all. I also felt purely whole and
perfect. I felt like I was finally at home where I belong for the first time in my life! God is real you all! Do not let Satan
make you believe He is not!
At one point, I felt elevated up into God's mind, to the highest level of being where all is immaculate: impeccable pure,
sacred, consecrated holiness and uncontaminated consciousness. There was perfect peace and divine order --all existed
as "One Spirit." There was no sense of time, only eternity. Tranquility and calm blueness surrounded me. This
BLUENESS was “SPIRIT”, the SPIRIT was “PEACE,” the PEACE was “MIND, and the MIND was DEITY, our sovereign
GOD. God was, is and always will be the Living Invisible Immortal Supreme Authority. God is Omni, the SOURCE of
All. He is abundant in everything: peace, truth, grace, mercy, goodness, forgiveness, faithfulness and a fountain
flowing with wisdom, power and love! Yes, our God is an AWESOME God! He truly rules from heaven above with
Wisdom, Power and Love.
I did not see bright lights or angles, or streets of gold or beautiful mansions; nor did I physically see passed relatives.
Nevertheless, I felt completely connected to their presences, like there was no separation. My mind was empty of worry
and I was not in the least concerned about anything or anyone, for I knew God was in total control of every aspect of all
our lives. Truly, I knew everything was all right with everyone everywhere. It felt as if God literally reached down from
heaven-- picked me up and wrapped me in Himself while transforming my harden heart with His powerful love. How
great and mighty is our God and How worthy He is to be praised -- and thanked all the time!
I am not sure how much time went pass; the next thing I knew I was back in my body still standing in the kitchen next
to the sink and the washing machine. The power of God dropped me to the floor on my knees. I rocked back and forth
weeping uncontrollably as if my eyes were water faucets that would not shut off. I then heard these words loud and
clear, “Every Knee Shall Bow And Every Tongue Shall Confess To God.” I did not know it then, but those are the exact
same words recording in Romans 14:11 where it says, "For it is written: "As I live, says the LORD, Every knee shall bow to
Me, And every tongue shall confess to God."
That day I bowed and confessed God repeatedly, saying, “GOD! YOU REALLY ARE REAL! YOUR WORD IS TRUE!
THE BIBLE IS RIGHT! NOW I KNOW! God told me He was coming back to get His Church and He wanted it to be
without spot or wrinkle! He told me to write three books, and keep His word clean. When I met God, the creator of
heaven and earth He did not judge me, but bathe me in the warmth and comfort of His love. He changed my life forever
on that cold Friday afternoon in January 1995.
Today, I do not wonder, nor am I curious anymore about anything, because God came and satisfied my yearning soul
and my curious nature. He has brought peace to my once confused mind, healed my broken heart, and helped me to
forgive those who hurt me. He has brought me from pain and darkness into His marvelous light. He has put the pieces
of my life back together and gave me rest for my soul. My husband eventually left me for the other woman; but today I
can say God has saved my children from the enemy’s hand by setting them free from the devil’s diabolical plan.
I now know that Satan the adversary, the opposite of truth and light, works contrary to our welfare. He lies and tries to
steal, kill and destroy our very souls/lives by keeping us in bondage and spiritual blindness. Today, instead of being
fearful in the enemy’s hands, my children and I are safely in the palms of almighty God's hand, faithfully trusting in
Him and His eternal plan. That day I found out that not only is God real; but He had heard me when I prayed. I am
grateful He came and rescued me. Today I have a personal relationship with God and I know God reigns and He is living
on the inside of me in the presence of the Holy Spirit. Today, my life is meaningful and full of purpose.
Now that I look back over my past, it seems all my life circumstances was a divine setup that brought me to the end of
myself, right into the hands and care of the almighty God; for all I went through lead me safely home to God, my
heavenly Father. I NOW know what I didn't know THEN -- I had felt alienated from life because I was alienated from
I also know this, "And as it is appointed unto men once to die, after this, the judgment," (Hebrews 9:27). Therefore, I
just want to say to the reader that God is as real as the air you breathe. He is as close to you as the jugular veins are in
the side of your neck. He is a friend you do not want to live and die without, for you will surely stand before Him one
day. If you do not know God as your heavenly Father or His Son, Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you need to get
to know Them. Pray and ask Jesus to come into your heart and forgive your sins. I guarantee you He will come! Ask
Him to walk with you, direct your path daily, and grant you a home in heaven with Him after this life on earth is over:
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have
everlasting life, " (John 3: 16).
|ASSUREDLY, GOD IS
ALIVE AND NOT DEAD,
He told me to say to those who are complaining,
"STOP IT! Stop trying to make everything and
everyone the same: STOP judging, STOP criticizing
and STOP condemning other religious families that's
not like yours. STOP IT! Let Me be Me. I am the
SOURCE of all. I AM THAT I AM and I WILL BE
WHAT I WILL TO BE" (excerpt from White Light).
IF YOUR HEART
IS EMPTY AND
ALLOW HIM TO
|(Edited Version) BREAKTHROUGH AMID FAMILY HEARTACHE
Rebellious children, her husband;s affair and death in the family broke
Taliba's heart before a miraculous experience changed her life perspective.
Married at age 17 with five children by age 26, Taliba had some good years before her first
husband was shot and killed. From there things slowly began to unravel.
She married her second husband months later and clung to her perfectionism, fearing that loss of
control would cause her family to fall apart.
"I began to feel empty on the inside and dissatisfied with life; after I got off work at night I would
stop by the nightclub seeking relief and satisfaction, but there was none," Taliba confesses.
Already in debt, when Taliba and her husband both lost their jobs, her car was repossessed and
they were threatened with house foreclosure.
More painful and dark times quickly followed for her family after her youngest son denounced her
as his mother and pronounced he hated her, and her oldest granddaughter ran away from home.
Added to her pain was her oldest son's addiction to drugs and alcohol and the news that her
husband had been in an adulterous relationship.
The final straw was the unexpected death of her nine-month old grandson.
"Grief, sadness and darkness were all around me. I longed for peace and understanding;
nevertheless, all the hurt, pain, disappointments and confusion at last overwhelmed me. I had
suddenly come to the end of myself," she says.
Taliba finally broke down crying and pleading to God for help, knowing something in her life had to
"I did not know if God was truly real or not, but I hoped He was. I only knew my soul was
desperate and my heart sincere."
A few months after her grandson's funeral God answered her prayers while on a visit to her sick
"On that cold Friday afternoon in January 1995, my life changed forever," Taliba recalls.
"The experience was as though God came and pulled the veil from my eyes and said, Wake up my
child, it's time to know the truth and be set free'."
Taliba distinctly remembers her encounter with the real and living God as she returned to the
kitchen after bringing her mother something to eat.
The heaviness left her as she was lifted up and saw a huge visible presence high in the sky.
"He was just so real and alive; more real than anything I have ever known. I knew right away that it
was God," she says.
The tears poured out as she felt engulfed by comfort and peace as God brought clarity to her mind
and a deep understanding of who He was.
"I knew and understood at that moment that God was in full control, for my mind was totally at
peace. It felt as if God literally reached down from heaven and wrapped me in Himself; took my
heart in His powerful hand and transformed it," she explains.
"I could feel His deep overflowing unconditional love flow through me in spite of all I had done. I
also knew God loved my lying adulterous husband, my sons with their wayward and destructive
behaviours as well as every other soul in the world."
Suddenly Taliba understood the weight of what Jesus had done on the cross for her, as she had
learned about at Sunday school as a child.
Having dealt with sin through his death and resurrection, Jesus was able to offer the free gift of
forgiveness to all those who accept it.
"In that moment I felt His perfect peace and His unlimited forgiveness, His deep compassion, His
great and tender mercy, His amazing kindness and His immense grace. I felt like I was finally at
home where I belong for the first time in my life!"
"That day I bowed and confessed my sins to Jesus Christ repeatedly, saying, "God, You are real!
Your Word is true!"
With confusion gone and a determination to turn away from her old ways and follow Jesus Christ,
her yearning soul was satisfied by God, Taliba says.
Although her husband eventually left her for the other woman, she explains that God has "healed
my broken heart and helped me to forgive those who hurt me."
"He has put the pieces of my life back together and He has given me rest for my soul."
"Today I have a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ and I know He is living on the
inside of me in the presence of the Holy Spirit. Today, my life is meaningful and full of purpose."
Emboldened by God's transformation of her life, Taliba now wants to encourage other people,
saying, "Jesus Christ is a friend you do not want to live and die without, for you will surely stand
before Him one day. Don't wait until it is too late."
|TESTIMONY STORY PUBLISHED IN CHALLENGE NEWSPAPER MAY 2015
|My Story: INSPIRED BY THE GREATER ONE THROUGH A
SUPERNATURAL ENCOUNTER WITH GOD
|BOOK 1. WHITE LIGHT is
thought provoking, arouse
any spiritually-driven person,
provides a stirring and
illuminating look at God,
His love and the power He
has given us to overcome the
darkness in the world
|BOOK 2. INVISIBLE
SHIELD is an compelling
read on the undeniable
invisible presence of the
GOD, who is more than
enough, and is able to care
for and protect His people,
for He is LORD, MASTER
and complete OWNER of the
heavens and the earth
|BOOK 3. JOY and
Gladness is an inspiring
story of triumph,
overcoming obstacles and
how God gives peace in the
midst of storms, and
courage and strength to
endure the pressure of life;
therefore, God will always
see His children through
and He will always have
the last word, and that word
is " VICTORY"!
|(Unedited Lengthy Version) of Testimony ONLY if you would like to read the full story
before it was Published in the Challenge Newspaper
|"And as it is appointed unto men once to die, after this, the judgment," (Hebrews 9:27). Therefore, I just
want to say to the reader that God is as real as the air you breathe. He is as close to you as the jugular
veins are in the side of your neck. He is a friend you do not want to live and die without, for you will
surely stand before Him one day. If you do not know God as your heavenly Father or His Son, Jesus Christ
as your Lord and Savior, you need to get to know Them today. Pray and ask Jesus to come into your heart
and forgive your sins. I guarantee you He will come! Ask Him to walk with you, direct your path daily, and
grant you a home in heaven with Him after this life on earth is over:
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